I was watching Oprah Lifeclass and wow, I realized something about myself.
This young girl, Zoe, had seen her mom be abused by a man (not her father) and she saw that weakness in her mom and decided that she didnt want to be like that. So she felt like she had to be tough because she didnt want to be like her mom.
This made me realize that I have done the same thing. I have witnessed my dad verbally abuse my mom and my mom argues back, but she takes a lot of his shit and I think I built this wall that no guy has been able to get passed because I will be dammed if I ever let a man treat me like that.
But I need to get over it because not every guy is like my dad. Dont get me wrong my dad is a good guy, but he has some anger problems and he gets to this point where he just says things to hurt my mom. I have the same anger problems and although I understand why he is like that, I decided that is not what I want for myself.
Sorry for the rant, but I really needed to just vent.